This is important because what I hope the
reader will learn is, your times mean nothing, doing it does.
I want to write a memoir about running but I’m not
sure what aspect of it I should write about.
The reason why I began to run again is only important to show what it
was to me and what it became to me.
It was grief that made the need for some mental
outlet. Do I need to include the
deceased name if I go this route? I’d
like to leave his family name in peace by not putting it out in cyberspace.
Because some days, running is a do not remember
zone, a mumble of thoughts.
What I want the reader to gain from reading this is
seeing how a solo sport such as running can start by healing an experience such
as grief, an overwhelming feeling of loneliness and become something that
allows you to be part of your life again.
Running just like life is never easy, but you get better at it. Regardless the level of expertise sometimes
you really feel like you should quit but the reward in finishing, the mental
peace, that battle where no one is there to push yourself but you alone, that
is the triumph I want the reader to feel.
It’s a battle for people to understand why running
is so important to me. People have
misconceptions with exercise. I am asked
all the time, “What are you training for?”
My answer puzzles them, deer in headlights when I say “Life.” By putting this down in writing, by
describing the self discipline this sport requires and how I feel during and
after I’m hoping to finally be able to better understand the depth I go in
running. Maybe I’ll be able to better
explain myself to people too.
When I think about my runs, they are music
specific. All words are specific to the
emotions I’m dealing with that day. Am I
using their words to speak for me? I don’t
think I need to include the music I do listen to for the reader to understand
that certain sports have gear that can be used as inspiration. Mine is music. I think I’ll have to be careful in making
sure I don’t get off track on what my story really is about.
